As you all (should) know by now, I am a geology student. As a geologist in training and because of Japan's latest disaster, I'm learning much about earthquakes, tsunamis and nuclear power. With all this being jammed into my head lately, it was only a matter of time before I had a tsunami nightmare.
I dreamt I was at a beautiful hotel swimming in the ocean. I came back up on the beach to look out over the sea and soon to be sunset. The water started running back towards the ocean, revealing all sorts of treasures. I immediately knew what was going on - I grabbed my fiance and as we started to run for the hotel we were yelling "GET OUT! GOT TO THE HOTEL!". But the noise from the people and the water surging backwards was too loud for us to be heard. Some people saw us running and followed... but when we all got back safely into the hotel high up, we watched as hundreds of people were crushed by this huge tsunami wave. I don't know why, but we all started to block doors so that the water couldnt get into the hotel. We wait back and watch to see if our blockades would stand up to the waves. Somehow, there were still people alive between waves that wanted in, and we had to take down the blockade and let them in, then rebuild the blockade before the next wave blasted through.
By this time I had woken up in complete panic. I got up to go brush my teeth (something I do to try to keep my mind off things). I went to get a drink of water. It was so dark that I was stumbling around knocking things over, just trying to calm myself down. At one time I saw a dark spot on the wall in the shape of a human and thought what if it's a guy? or a ghost??? (I don't know where I came up with that one... especially being that I'm an atheist! haha!) . . . But I was scared and shaking when I laid back down. Just trying to breathe slowly. Trying to fall back asleep.
I did fall asleep eventually, slept for another two hours... I've been awake for about an hour now.
Last night I did some research on massage therapy and panic... as I have done before, but I was wondering if my insurance would cover it perhaps? Didn't get too far, but I know I'd like to start regular massages. Also did a bit of research on aromatherapy as well. My fiance acutally has a bunch of oils, so I put some lavender in a cotton puff and put that in a cup on my nightstand last night. I really couldn't smell it unless I held the cup to my nose. But when I did smell it, it was relaxing. I'll have to find a more efficient way.
I imagine my anxiety is up because I'm close to my period... as I explained before period = hormones = extra emotional = anxiety... Horrible cycle... I hate period to begin with, why add on this extra b/s? :\ Meh... nothing I can do, nature does what nature does... Well I have homework to do... I likely won't even go to class today because I have so much to finish up on. Won't have time this weekend because one of my geology labs is taking an excursion! More on that later though!
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