After all this with "Betty" and her stealing so much money from us... I have endured a shit-ton of stress and am again experiencing more DP... I really thought I was on my way out, which I am, I consider this as a minor speed bump, but I'm just so damn down from feeling this way again. I get so scared when I feel disconnected, I start pondering the meaning of life and my place here if I can't feel anything. But I know it will get better, I do have better days, and I will be myself again one day. Until then all I can do is ride it out and keep my hopes up. Let me clarify - I'm not suicidal at all, I just feel like I'm going crazy, losing control or could drop dead at any minute... My ears aren't helping at all either - my vision is all screwed from it too and that really bothers me, it really gets my anxiety going. I'm going to try taking some more allergy meds tomorrow as I also have hay fever - horrible time of year for me - but I was also told that my ears could be acting this way because of allergies... so I'll give anything a shot!
I really wish you guys would comment, especially if you have similar symptoms and such... or share anything at all. I write for us all to learn - it's hard to do that when everyone only hears my side... Just post anonymously, that's fine! ^^
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