If this is all as simple as taking my vitamins and supplements... I'm going to be so damn angry with myself for spending a year of my life suffering from anxiety for nothing... haha, no... not really... I'm just going to be relieved that I'm going to be ok... I did some research today; turns out anxiety and depression can be simply caused from a vitamin deficiency... I've been on supplements for about a week now and I'm already able to control my anxiety and thoughts a bit better. So far I've been taking half the dosage for both the women's vitamin and the fish oil... I didn't want to shock my body with too many things at once. So maybe next week I'll start full dosage and see how that goes.
I actually skipped up the stairs today...felt nearly normal... and felt bored... I never thought I would miss being bored EVER. But I actually felt the feeling, the sensation of being bored and it was WONDERFUL! I got to my geology lab early by almost an hour and had to find something to do.
I know when I'm feeling better because I can talk more openly and freely about the scary times during my DP and anxiety... I'm not all the way back to my normal self, but I'm sure doing a hell of a sh!t-ton better than I was doing one-two weeks ago...
Anyway... tonight my fiance and I started Taekwondo. It was great minus the fact that a blizzard decided to attack the Pittsburgh area... took us nearly two hours to get there... and an hour to get home, when it normally takes about 25 minutes. There was so many damn people on the road... in crappy cars, stuck everywhere. Another reason why I love my Jeep. Snow? Ice? - No problem.
I really suggest to any of you who are suffering from anxiety/depression/panic/depersonalization to start your own blog when you start the road to recovery. It really helps to get your feelings out in the open and it's also a great reference to track your progess. I can't believe it's only been a week. I only hope it's this simple for others. I'm so relieved that it seems my vitamins were the real problem. I just can't understand why my doctor didn't ask - "Hey are you taking vitamins?" or suggest I may have a deficiency in the first place. Instead they jumped on the chance to put me on medication!!! OR order expensive tests!!! I don't get it... well... I get it - it likely has to do with $$$$$... but it's just messed up.
I've noticed my body has been craving nutrient rich foods in the last few months - brocolli, spinach, all vegetables, fruits and healthy whole foods... I now see I should have listened more to what my body was telling me. Don't ignore what your body is trying to tell you! Sometimes it knows how to fix itself better than a doctor - living proof here.
I will keep you all updated as I continue my recovery. <3
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