Sorry I haven't written... I'd have liked to yesterday atleast, but I had two exams in the last two days. Well it seems that vitamins alone aren't my miracle cure as I have been hoping. What seems to help is getting out and doing something new. Although it does feel like I am physically able to better control my anxiety and crazy running thoughts - I'm thinking the vitamins are helping with that. As spring approaches I can't help but hope that the weather will give me the boost I need to overcome this.
Also I look forward to studying in Germany just for the fact that I won't have to drive everyday. My daily commute to university drains me. I start to zone out and feel the DP and sometimes derealization also. I just want to be cured. I want my life back so bad. To be quite blunt - this shit sucks hard. I miss being able to focus on all the small details and just slow down. It seems now like I'm rushing day to day, hoping that tomorrow will be better. I'm tired of my life passing me by, waiting for a better day. I'm ready to start making today better, living right here and right now. I'm so eager to feel again - and no, that's not a typo.
In other news... I have to give a speech soon for a class - I get to pick the subject. I figure this will be a perfect time to start trying to put together an easily understandable explanation of why we should be worried about what we're doing to the planet - Global Warming - aka - Global Craziness. Not at this moment though... I want to just relax after a crazy day... a new Dragonball Z Kai is on later anyway! I don't have time to explain the complexities that will save/kill humanity!!! hehe... maybe tomorrow, no classes afterall...
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