I feel lately (the last few months) that my dreams have been strangely real feeling, and when I wake up, it's like - Wow, so that was just a dream... Ofcoarse by that time, I also realize that flying gorillas don't exist, but my dream seemed oh-so-real! I sometimes feel more comfortable in my dreams or just imagining things than acutally being out in the real world. I don't know when this happened, but I will change it.
And to top things off, it snowed yesterday... It's supposed to be spring, and it snowed... :( As a snowboarder, I do enjoy snow, but I'm done for the season - I'm ready for warmer temperatures and all the green.
Oh! I also finally didn't put up with my fiance's father's drunken bullshit. He went to the doctor yesterday because his feet are PURPLE - because of his drinking. So we went down to their house a little before his dad was due home to ask how things went. His dad finally came home... nearly two hours later and wouldn't say a thing about what the doctor really said; he just kept laughing and giggling - pretending it was all a big joke. This infuriated me because a huge part of my anxiety comes from his drunken bullshit and worrying about his health. I finally told him that I wasn't going to waste my time caring about him if he didn't care about me. He continues to drain our family finacially and emotionally. I'm done. I can't let him keep creating stress in my life and letting myself deteriorate because of him.
Onward, to the next phase in my life!
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